so ive realized

I am not going to be stable enough to date any time soon. Its been almost two months and I just can't shake it off. I still feel like Chad and I were meant to be together. How can you just stop loving someone. I cried myself to sleep again last night. 

questions

1. how many times were you with kelly...don't lie to me. I read the texts and know it was at least twice. .....also, why did you continue to text her after the incident happened? Why didnt you just stop it then if you knew it was wrong?

2. why didnt you text me back? why were you ignoring me?

3. Why can't you express yourself at all towards how you felt about me? Do you think you can change in that aspect?

4. Would you stop talking to kelly if i gave you the opprotunity to get back together with me?

5. Do you regret what you did?

6. Would you promise never to cheat on me again?

I think I understand love?

I don't know, I've been thinking a little lately. Love is complicated. I think if two people are in love, they want to spend time together. They lay aside certain times to enjoy eachother's company, go on dates....just spend time together. I don't know if I've ever really experienced love. I feel like sometimes I put too much effort into the current relationship I am in . I feel like he just doesn't want to see me as much as I want to see him. It really tears me up inside. I just don't know. I can't get like this. Gah I am depressed. 

I miss Summer.

I've been thinking a lot lately.I miss everything about last summer! I Had the best time of my life. One of the things I miss the most are the servers I worked with. They came over to the U.S. from Russia. I miss them all sooooooooo much, sadly they aren't coming back this summer D:......ill attach a few pictures :P

ello.

well, i figured since i'm cool ill start a blog, thats all for now :x